Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Saling Under the Harvest Moon

September in Seattle (and Tacoma) is marked by cool air that chills the nape and the last of the zucchini blossoms. In the Garden of Goodness, a beautiful bounty of squash, cucumbers, peppers, leeks, tomatoes, and lima beans was lit by the harvest moon this weekend. It also sparkled across the water of Elliott Bay (read on).

The seeds we’ve sown and nurtured have blossomed and bore fruit when we reap our harvest. These past few months I planted seeds of my own to:

1. Regain my self-love.

2. Establish boundaries to improve my parenting and protect my home and finances.

3. Step faithfully beyond the fear of the unknown with my business and construction projects.

4. Be the integrity that my word represents my intentions to the world.

5. Forgive and release energy focused on the past.

The (symbolic) garden of my life is overflowing with freshness..


Dylan started the fifth grade last Wednesday. We made an agreement on the house rules. After setting the rules, I asked, “Is there anything that would keep you from living with these rules? Now is the time for us to change anything you can’t live with.” He asked if we could have a rule that I take him to school 20 minutes early everyday. I said, “No problem,” and kept my promise all week, as I will for the remainder of the year. He also kept his word about living with the rules.

For the first time ever, on Thursday he asked, “Is there any other chores I can do for you, mom?” AMAZING! The rules and expectations are building his motivation and confidence. He wants to exceed my expectations.

I too want to exceed my own expectations (and his). In business, we closed two more U.S. Treasury grant writing contracts last week- and picked up a strategic planning client in Sonoma, CA.

What about personal joy? I mentioned, “the moon sparkled on Elliot Bay.” I’ve been so heartbroken these last few months, that I forgot that spending time with an attractive, charismatic man could be enjoyable and romantic. I went on a date on Friday- let my hair down, laughed, smiled and was swept off my feet for an evening. It’s been so long since I’ve felt remotely interested in a man. And really it has been about me loving myself enough to let go of something that didn't work to create an opening in my heart for something that could.



I’m letting go of the sadness. It’s not hard when the option is to sit in mourning or to graciously accept roses during a sunset cruise from someone that just wants to get to know me.

The message at my spiritual center today was simply be light and feel joy. That seams like a way to be grateful for the things we’ve nurtured and grown in our lives.

Monday, August 03, 2009

Leap of Faith

I jumped out of a plane yesterday and it was spiritual. In fact I'm jumping into a whole new life. At first I was terrified by all of the life changes. That fear was debilitating. Can I manage the huge home construction project as a single mom? Can I make my business soar without a loving partner to back me up? Then I decided to take control and turn that fear into faith. I tackled the challenges one at a time- and with faith each step I took turned into a giant successful leap. Yesterday I went skydiving to change my entire mindset. It was AMAZING! Remember this is your life and fear can only paralyze you, if you let it. Im choosing to live an empowered life. I am letting go of my fear to make my dreams come true. See my bliss. ( My smile is nearly blinding in this video.) It is in you too.





Separately, I recieved amazing news today. This blog was named #29 on the list of 100 Incredible Philanthropy Blogs by Bible College Reviews.

The review said, "With many people out of work and struggling to make ends meet, charitable giving and philanthropy is more important than ever to help people domestically and around the world get on their feet and lead better lives. If you’re interested in learning how to give back or want to find out more about people and organizations dedicated to philanthropy, the web is a great place to start. These blogs will help you get a clearer picture of philanthropic projects large and small, and ways that you can get the greatest result from dedicating your time or money."

And goes on in the list to describe my blog, "This mom uses this blog as a forum to talk about the community projects they work with in their hometown."

I've been writing much more about spirituality and God's connection to my decision to create an enjoyable life and actively contribute to community. My wonderful church Genesis Global Spiritual Center has guided me to a much more graceful life. I am grateful for the beautiful place of unconditional love it is in my life and community.

Friday, June 06, 2008

Pushing Boundaries in the Volcano


I'm crazy about Seal. His words are set me on fire, hot. "In a world full of people why do only some of us fly? Isn't that crazy." Think about that. Me, you, we can do whatever we want in life to fly. And by fly I just mean to be yourself, free to be you-vibrantly.

There is an artist who exemplifies this. I wrote an article about her. Want a shot of empowerment? Read on:


Pushing Boundaries by Jamie Chase in the Weekly Volcano.

To intrigue you into reading the story...